A Reminder To The Future Soberer Me

I let my guard down, how stupid.

All of the sweet smiles and lies made me believe,

I felt like I belonged and that, some how, by some stroke of luck; 

I had finally gained a family.

I got comfortable and I thought all was good.

Oh God, how I was wrong...

All the walls that I thought was secure, shattered.

The masks of happiness dropped,

and I was left alone crying and hurt.

I knew who I was dealing with, 

but I hoped people could change.

All I can do now is see where I made my mistakes,

and harden myself again once I reach the end of this bottle.

I refuse to make the same mistakes again.

I let my guard down, I was stupid,

Just Venting I Guess

I frustrate myself sometimes.

I know that what I am doing is stupid and I shouldn't do it.

But what do I do?

I do exactly what I advise myself not to do.

Why?

Probably because I'm a crazy optimistic person; even though I don't want to be.

I do it because I hope that the outcome will be different.

But it never is, and that is how I start my own headaches.

Why can't life be simpler?

But if one of my wishes could be granted; just this one time.

I guess it would be let us at least become friends.

But I guess that won't be happening.

So I'll just live with this frustration.

RWAR!!!!

 Side Note*

Enough about me as usual, tell me your story (by sending a email) at tell.me.your.stories.here@gmail.com 

I really want to know your story, and if you want to be anonymous just send me a email using this http://send-email.org/

And you will be completely anonymous =^3. So please share a story with me.

What you have faced, been through, going through, feeling, and etc. It doesn't matter what you decided to share with me, I'll still be amazed and thankful you shared, so just relax and let me know =^)

Arrrrgghhh!!!

Why can't what you imagine come true??

I saw you sitting across the way minding your own business and ignored your good looks.

And than I see you again sitting across the way the next day.

Both times I met you were by coincidence, and I knew that, hence the reason ignored you agian.

But why did you have to mess it up?!!!!

If only you had mind your business like the last time, I would not be interested in you now.

If you didn't notice me and did not call out to me to ask a question.

I would not be here wondering who you are!!!!

And as much as I hate it, I can't wait to see you agian.

It would be simpler to just walk up to you and just say "Hey I think your incredibly handsome."

Then be done with you.

But no. 

Life does not work that way so now I'm sitting here with thoughts and questions about you!

God I just hope all of these thoughts will disappear tomorrow.

And I so hope we don't meet agian or have a conversation.

Because it will just be maddening. Just when I say I'm done for now, I turn ans see you.

Hopefully blogging about it releases these emotions.

RWAR!!!!

 Side Note*

Don't forget to tell me your story (by sending a email) at tell.me.your.stories.here@gmail.com 

I really want to know your story, and if you want to be anonymous just send me a email using this http://send-email.org/

And you will be completely anonymous =^3. So please share a story with me.

What you have faced, been through, going through, feeling, and etc. just relax and let me know =^)

Are you happy now? I'm gald if you are...

I must be a hypocrite. I provide advice to other people, but when it comes down to it my body doesn't follow it. I wonder why that is... I was careless when shown a mirage of false happiness, all precautions and walls that were set up; were weakened.
And once I was completely defenseless and foolishly happy; the betrayal hit me.
The pain was almost unbearable to handle, but it was the sadness and anger that kept me standing until a small piece of control was regained within. The stupidity that once held my mind was released
and I understood where I went wrong.
I'm sorry. I made the mistake, and the trust that I foolishly placed on you has been removed.
Do not worry, because I will not make the same mistake again.
In the end, I thank you, for imparting this new piece of wisdom on me.
It will never be forgotten.