A Reminder To The Future Soberer Me

I let my guard down, how stupid.

All of the sweet smiles and lies made me believe,

I felt like I belonged and that, some how, by some stroke of luck; 

I had finally gained a family.

I got comfortable and I thought all was good.

Oh God, how I was wrong...

All the walls that I thought was secure, shattered.

The masks of happiness dropped,

and I was left alone crying and hurt.

I knew who I was dealing with, 

but I hoped people could change.

All I can do now is see where I made my mistakes,

and harden myself again once I reach the end of this bottle.

I refuse to make the same mistakes again.

I let my guard down, I was stupid,

Just Venting I Guess

I frustrate myself sometimes.

I know that what I am doing is stupid and I shouldn't do it.

But what do I do?

I do exactly what I advise myself not to do.

Why?

Probably because I'm a crazy optimistic person; even though I don't want to be.

I do it because I hope that the outcome will be different.

But it never is, and that is how I start my own headaches.

Why can't life be simpler?

But if one of my wishes could be granted; just this one time.

I guess it would be let us at least become friends.

But I guess that won't be happening.

So I'll just live with this frustration.

RWAR!!!!

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